thirtyfour

i'm only thirtyfour!
how can it be?!?

i feel ancient!

like a frightened, frail
little, old man

i look in the mirror
and yes, i look ten years old-
er than i am, but
it's still NOT right!

that man doesn't look
ancient, enfeebled, decrepit.
he looks like, maybe,
he could still bust ass
for 8-10 hours in some
factory or warehouse

he doesn't look like it's been
almost two years since
he's been with a woman

he doesn't look like his heart
may stop if the cat moves
too quickly

he doesn't look like his life
is over.