Judgment in death

My existence is a state of mind
Fictionalized I appreciate myself in the third person
Things most people are obsessed with I find out of reach
Perhaps if I could keep the drugs out of my system I could get back to them
Besides they’ve got me on 12 counts of homicide 6 manslaughter
I’m guilty of destroying the lives of everyone around me through my depression

I play a counselor and a therapist on television
That’s about the biggest audience you can reach
Plus I am held in contempt of court
Guilty of not doing what I was commission to do
I lost sight of the pledge in the midst of my sin

A narcissist I was more consumed with jewelry and designer clothes
Besides no one was listening to me in the first place
Of course I always feel like less than a person around those that know me best
Or proclaim to it’s crazy who does and does not in this world
If you can’t rest in peace now what makes you think the afterlife is any better